Today my dad turns 57. I have no idea what his plans are for celebrating… or even if he is. I plan to call and sing Happy Birthday to him on the way to work. Part of my heart breaks for him really. What does a man who has now lived 57 years celebrate when he is surrounded by people he has not known for a full 10 of those years? What does he think about when each of us reach out to him in our own way? Does his birthday make him sad? I have heard the older you get, the more birthdays make you reflect on your death day… =/
Even still, I want to write a tribute to my father. Regardless of his bad choices in the past, every passing minute is a chance to change who you are. I do not hope he changes for me, I sincerely hope he changes for himself. I want him to discover that true happiness is not in serving self, but in serving others.
Lord, I pray you would bless my father on today to get a glimpse of who YOU truly are so that he can then see himself and be convicted. I pray he sees how following his own ways have led him to where he is and that only YOU can bring him back. Show him you love him still. Show Him your love through me. Make me the daughter he needs to have in his life to experience an even greater redemption than he could imagine. And if not… Lord I pray that he would not have to suffer in this life. The pain of loss is more than most can bear. Deal kindly with him. Give him days of inspiration and hope. At least for today, give him a happy day of 57 candles. In Jesus’ name, Amen.