Music Monday – Because of You by Kelly Clarkson

This week’s Music Monday is around one of my favorite songs: Because of You by Kelly Clarkson.This song has been posted on the Facebook page before as well. This song feels like a timeless classic in my life because my mindset has changed my interpretations of it over the years.
When the song was first released, I was pointing fingers at my dad just as she is in the song.
I could have said a handful of years ago: “Dad, if it weren’t for you, I wouldn’t be a heartbreaker… because maybe just MAYBE I’d trust a man to be real. Instead, I’m manipulative and controlling. Because of YOU!”
Other parts of the song did not resonate with me as they did my sister. She felt “so young [he] should have known better than to lean [on her]” yet for us both we knew “[He] never thought of anyone else, [he] just saw [his own] pain…” How, I muse, does this separation affect my dad? What is he thinking?
Now, I simply refuse to be fenced in by fear. My dad has made poor choices. My dad’s behavior is not indicative of every man’s behavior. I will not disrespect others out of my frustration with him. I will not hold others accountable for the love he neglected to show me. I refuse to give my heart to someone in pieces. I choose to be mended. I choose to forgive him and hope for a better future.
When you listen, know that this place where she is in the song is not where one should dwell. Let your season of “Because of You” end with a strong determination to stand up for yourself and your self-worth.
You are better than the ones who brought you down. You are so much better.
I will not make the same mistakes that you did
I will not let myself
Cause my heart so much misery
I will not break the way you did,
You fell so hard
I’ve learned the hard way
To never let it get that farBecause of you
I never stray too far from the sidewalk
Because of you
I learned to play on the safe side so I don’t get hurt
Because of you
I find it hard to trust not only me, but everyone around me
Because of you
I am afraid

I lose my way
And it’s not too long before you point it out
I cannot cry
Because I know that’s weakness in your eyes
I’m forced to fake
A smile, a laugh everyday of my life
My heart can’t possibly break
When it wasn’t even whole to start with

Because of you
I never stray too far from the sidewalk
Because of you
I learned to play on the safe side so I don’t get hurt
Because of you
I find it hard to trust not only me, but everyone around me
Because of you
I am afraid

I watched you die
I heard you cry every night in your sleep
I was so young
You should have known better than to lean on me
You never thought of anyone else
You just saw your pain
And now I cry in the middle of the night
For the same —- thing

Because of you
I never stray too far from the sidewalk
Because of you
I learned to play on the safe side so I don’t get hurt
Because of you
I try my hardest just to forget everything
Because of you
I don’t know how to let anyone else in
Because of you
I’m ashamed of my life because it’s empty
Because of you
I am afraid

Because of you
Because of you

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About Keila Harris

An MBA graduate with an unparalleled ability to keep a team focused on the goal with clear deliverables to produce for specific results. I am a self-starter. I began a nonprofit organization in 2012 called the DBMH Project, Inc. and then authored a book as well. I love the intersection of business and technology and solving problems alongside colleagues dedicated to their work. I like to focus on growth strategies through SMART goals and accountability. I believe power is in the execution of constant learning and open, humble self-improvement. Therefore I read incessantly and expand my network at every opportunity. #PayItForward #SuccessIsTheJourney

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